And the stars shone last night unlike any other night.
Last night before dozing off to yet another troubled sleep, I looked out of the large window into the dark night with bright sky twinkling with myriad stars and I had a feeling to belong. The vastness of everything around me, the sky, the glass window and the night, everything, made me empty.
And today, the picture in front of me is a face, a face on a glass window, very many stars in the night sky outside, with empty eyes.
Believe me when I say, I never wanted to, now when I look back or look ahead or remain, be a stone. I may collapse now, any moment, count the seconds ticking away, it may be any second now. But, deep within me I know I won’t. I cannot.
I too desire the shelter and shade of a rock. I want to look up at the stars; I want a finger to point to the sky, I want to be shown. I want to, I too want to get drenched in the rain, and get wet till the bones. I want to shiver and run home holding a firm hand, that firm hand. I want to see the sun rise and set and want to exhaust the ever willing ears with my umpteen questions. I want to, I too want to be vulnerable. I want to ride on the clouds and hear stories about the far away wonderland; I want to hear those stories in that voice, the voice of the mountains. I want to be beaten and protected, shouted at and pampered, despised and adored; I want to be loved. I too want sit under the shade.
But the umbrella is lost!
And when I think and see out in the real world I realize there are so many like me and so many unlike me. There are many more privileged than me and there are far many worse. And still I cannot help being what I do not want to be.
For once, just once I want to lose. I want to sit with the audience and enjoy the act, enjoy being the spectator.
Sometimes I see a lone cow grazing on a large green pasture and cannot help but smile at the irony of the painting.
And today the sun is up just like the days before today. And I am sure there will be a rainfall just like a few days ago.
Kashiv had a sudden urge to wash his face, he hadn’t finished writing. He walked to the basin, splashed his face with cold water, looked in the bathroom mirror and smiled, a smile of resignation.
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Ur writings are deep brother…well expressed
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Thank you so much, Roy!
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welcome
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Oh the feels of this one! Poignantly beautiful! 😢 The image in the end is heartbreaking! Thank you for sharing such a work of art…
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Thanks for the appreciation, Isha!
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“For once, just once I want to lose. I want to sit with the audience and enjoy the act, enjoy being the spectator.” – This was brilliant, I must say.. It stood out to me for some reason..
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Thank you, Isha! When readers react like this to your writing, it takes you to heaven without dying… ! 😊😊
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Well in that case, you’re soon going to have a paradise on earth itself, created by multitude of readers who love what you do!😊
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Haha… Thanks, Isha! You’re too kind!
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I too desire the shelter and shade of the rock.. Gave me goosebumps..today no words to say.. Really I too miss that umbrella in sun and in rain… 👌😆
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I know Nikz how you feel… Thanks for being so kind….!
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From the beginning to the end, it was captivating. Made my day, reminds me of all the things I want to do. I better get to them now. Thanks for an invaluable inspiration.
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I am happy you could draw inspiration from my post.. thank you so much for this, your comment has made my day..
It really feels awesome when someone appreciates your effort…
Thanks, Issiakson.!
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So many like me and so many unlike me. A participant and a spectator.
I LOVED this post Vikash…in a few different ways.
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I am so glad you liked it Bojana!😊 Thank you so much for your kind words… Life is amazing!!!😊😊😊😊😊
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Indeed.
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😊😊
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Very touching…Nothing can fill the void when we lose someone dear, but we do have to carry on and surrender to the situation.Especially when we are lonesome and tired, we need those strong but warm hands to caress our forehead and free us of all the heart-ache and pain……..An umbrella Indeed!
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Thanks Tanya!! I agree with what you said. And there are times when you just want to give up, call “I quit” but then when you see up through the umbrella , you see those eyes watching you, you see the belief in those eyes and you say softly to yourself, “for you I’ll go on”… And then the sun shines and you feel the warmth…
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This most really won my heart. It was so relateable.
This was the most beautiful post of the day. As days r passing ur writing r headind perfect kashiv.
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Over the moon I am, Shreya!😊 Thanks, this means a lot. I am so happy you liked my writing…!!!😊
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You’re we
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beautifully written!
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Your comment means a lot Orville, it encourages me to go further, thanks a lot!😊
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Very beautiful! So touching and makes me think of my father, who I miss so very dearly.~Anne
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Thought provoking
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Thank you so much, Veorren!😊
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This is gorgeous! Heartbreaking and yet inspiring…You melt the two so well….
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Thank you, Lebby!!!☺️
You’re too kind….
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Intense and inspiring expression of loss.
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Glad you liked it, Victoria!!!☺️ Thanks…
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Poetic prose from your heart.
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Or should I say prosaic poetry.
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Thanks a lot , Von!! What a compliment… !!! You made my day!!☺️
Thank you so much!!!😊
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I find this very brilliant. I feel different reading this. Greatly inspired. Thanks for your beautiful work.
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Thank you so much!! I really appreciate your taking out time, stopping by and reading…
Means a lot!!!☺️
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Wonderfully expressed taken away by your thoughts.
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Thanks a lot!
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Beautifully written as always! Keep writing! You’re one of my inspiration when it comes to writing 🙂
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Thanks a lot, Winnie! And you inspire me too… I read your recent post, it’s amazing.
And
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Thank you Vikash!
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…And I too wrote on Anger once. Haha…😉
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Sometimes a loss ends up being a win….
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Exactly… You’re right… There is a book by Pavan K Varma titled ” when loss is gain”, you made me think of this with your comment…
😊
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I dodn’t know about this book, but I will check it out! Thanks ! 🙂
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It’s a good read, check it out..
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Just found it on goodreads. Sounds really insightful. Thank you for suggesting!
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Haha.. you’re welcome B… It is interesting… 😊
And it’s a light read…
And a light book….😂😂
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hey!! nominated u for liebster award
https://exploredunexplore.wordpress.com/2018/02/02/liebster-award-2018/
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Thanks a lot, Enni! I don’t know how to thank you enough.😊
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Don’t thnk me ….. u deserve this. So go for it
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Well, but I have to thank you…. But Enni, I am sorry, I already did this last month so I won’t be doing it this time.. but the mention and nomination means a lot.. this is my third nomination and I am so happy, I cannot express..
😊😊
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Awwww nooo 🙁🙁
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This is so beautifully written and images of umbrellas as metaphors along with the beautiful father-son image make me love your writing even more. You’re an amazing storyteller and have a keen insight into the nature of reality. Thank you Vikash. Have a great day 🙂
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Thank you so much, Anand! I am so glad you liked my writing.. I have, in reality, always considered my father as a shelter from rain and sun, hence
umbrella… And now that he is no longer with me in this world, I feel I stand naked under the sky.
Have a great day!!!😊
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I am sorry for your loss. May he rest in peace and you shine with his warmth remembrance and blessings 🙂
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His memories, which aren’t many, will always be there and his blessings is all I seek…!
Thanks😊…
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🙂 🙂 🙂
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Beautiful:)
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Thanks a lot…!
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Wow is the word
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Thank you so much, Vikram!😊
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You’re already in this beautiful world to experience all your desires.
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Yeah, you’re right, Peter!😊☺️
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Blessings!
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Thanks😊
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You’re welcome.
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I don’t want to be a stone either.
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Yeah, but sometimes you cannot help yourself from being …..
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I’m also the one like you….be brave….
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Definitely, cannot get loose. Everything happen because they are meant to happen and in that process it teaches us a lot, makes us strong and when the time comes to be strong we can’t get weak.
Thanks a lot Sana for stopping by…☺️☺️
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It was worth stopping by….
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You’re too kind… 😊
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Thank you vikash
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You’re welcome…☺️
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Hey, I have nominated you for the know me tag award.
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Thanks a lot, Shayra!😊
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Welcome and waiting for your answers😊
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I always appreciate your work and nominated you for sunshine blogger award hope so you accept it
https://amnaaslamblog.wordpress.com/2018/02/06/sunshine-blogger-awardfirst-nomination/
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Thank you so much, Amna!😊
I am so happy you liked my work and felt I deserved this honour, thank you so much!!!😊☺️😊
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Welcome i am waiting for your answers
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CONGRATULATIONS 😊
You have been nominated for the Blogger Recognition Award!
You’ll find the details in this blog post:
https://ishaisms.wordpress.com/2018/02/08/blogger-recognition-award/
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This was deep and soo beautiful.
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Thank you so very much…!
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This post hits so close to home at the moment. Thanks for sharing your talent, Vikash. And thank you also for dropping by my blog today. 🙂
Maricel
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Thank you, Maricel! This is very very close to me, the post. This is not talent, I like talking and you as a reader are a very good listener. Thanks for listening.
And your blog is wonderful! Keep wandering and evolving.. you’ve written some beautiful quotes…
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Well I truly enjoyed reading it. This subject offered by you is very practical for proper planning.
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Thanks a lot!
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